Those are the words engraved on a sterling silver ring that adorns the ring finger on my right hand. Shortly before I became pregnant, my mom and I took a day-trip to Laguna Beach, one of my favorite places and a place I wanted to share with one of my favorite people. I have nothing but fond memories of our trip, and to forever commemorate our day in Laguna together, my mom bought me this special souvenir.
I wear the ring (one of eight) daily. But lately, I realized that I wasn’t being true to my ring. Was I spending my day practicing any of these verbs - desire, dream, reach, soar? When I was honest with myself, I admitted that it wasn’t enough to merely have a desire or a dream, was I acting on it? Was I reaching for it, was I trying to soar?
Honestly, the answer was, “Not really.”
I was spending my days checking things off my to-do list: setting up appointments, renewing prescriptions, paying bills, cleaning, cooking. I was toiling away in a career I was becoming increasingly disheartened with. And in between, I’d have moments of bliss playing and being with my son and moments of exhaustion taking care of my son (meal times, bedtime routine). Scattered somewhere in there, was a random hour to pursue my
desire, my dream, to write.
My life is imbalanced, with the pendulum favoring the list of things I need to do, instead of the things I’d like to do.
I’m going to change that.
2013 will be a big year for me. It’s the year I turn 37, and those numbers have always held special significance for me. 3 and 7 have always been my preferred numbers (not sure if they’re really lucky). My birthday is 3/7. And both my mom and my son celebrate their birthdays on 03/30.
The lunar new year declares 2013 is the year of the snake. I declare 2013 the year of Wendy. As selfish as that initially sounds, I am hoping that a focus on me will have a positive domino effect that will benefit those closest to me.
2013 is the year I admit I am not the same Wendy I was. 2013 is the year I admit I live with a chronic medical condition. 2013 is the year I make some changes.
Changes that will allow me to desire, to dream, to reach, and to soar.